Say whaaa? Fuckin classy (Taken with instagram)

The insanity is interpellating My mind grasps but not long enough to hold This prefix to life following a dying path Eyes forward mind hopeful nevertheless heart smashed Listless i follow my dying path unable to stir myself clear I am dying… by my own hands Sober no rotting death fills my soul a heart what once was gold And to what do i owe the pleasure the thrill of emptiness an evasive creature sucking away my being A fools choice unable to break away i stop struggling Life all too delicate a twig amongst the tree of life Verbatim no fruitful endeavors i follow this dark path alone Yell into the shadows and you cannot hear yourself None will answer your crying plead You will die alone and unfulfilled amongst this path no hope to survive by yourself Plead for the angels to save your soul

Beauty you inspire; love

But with no conflict, do I romanticize

Nothing to pull my destitute soul back from

I remain, in your presents

Loved, caress, but I do not value your worth, until lost

not appreciating, or caring enough until, lost forever

Until forever then

I will take this as a challenge to look towards

Gives me interests

Gives me opportunities

Gives me emotions

Used to get, appreciate, caress, another

Tools, I need to use

Mind games played

We may not always win, but when we do, we destroy

Lifes, hopes, dreams, hearts

Beautiful chaos, u drive me, away, but I’m beckoned, always I remain

Curiousity really… Things work, it’s all chaos

Chaotic madness working together so beautifully

A churn, of, one word meant something

Different, perceptions changed, forever embedded memories

Tracks crossing each other, no guide to direct

We’ll all cross? We’ll never cross? We’ll all crash? We’ll all continue…

But walk with me, amongst my track you will see it not too unfimiliar

Similar to your own you think? It was a nice trek amongst the track I think…

And we fork…

Split ways: will I see you again, will our trains ever cross, we can only wait, only hope,

We are unguided, we continue

Cold world, ice around my heart, You grind our love from once it came, Nothing left, nothing left, nothing, No emotion, no feelings, no love, All lost, all gone, all done, everything, I must move on from our love, my everything, I must transplant you from my mind, You are my cancer, killing me slowly you are My death. I wish you were here, now! I live in dispair, I feel nothing, but my tears running, You cannot forgive, you’ve gone to another. you are new… And i am still lost in your heart, fell in love, lost… I knew no way to move on… Why must this torment continue? Why can’t thing become how we made them? Irreplaceable, with irritating and Irresponsible, Love, with drinks and drugs and moments, All lost, my love anew, never will I meet another like you

Not one word left my lips

I stood there, eyes teary

My hands shake, I look down

I breathe heavy, Heart falling apart

No words are needed, you’ve heard it all

You fall to your knees,

You let me into the case that protected your heart

Your head grounded, crushed:

Heart, soul, body, you lay wounded from love

But you will rise again,

One day; higher than I could ever take you

A halcyon clouded night, my mind oblivious

Deaf to my thoughts, but I hear the susurrus

The horseshoe-I stumble through-seems to undulate

As does my Adam’s apple-in my gullet as it trusses tight

The visceral actions, with such a coquette

Judgment drowned, in the azure of the Hpnotiq rivulet I imbibed

The heart, that I gave my love, down to only a dollop

Blinded, with no end in sight, memories locked away in an oubliette

I emerge, to the lithe beauty, I left behind at home

Inebriated, she cares for me, unknowing of my immoral act

She is ethereal, I know I do not deserve such an angel

Airy clouds, nimble, fading upwards

Trains roar, crickets chrip, cars rumble

Stars set synchronizing with time

Homes dimly lit, side, by side, by side

Cars surround their drivers, and drivers

Surround their cars; we are all in the cold

Nights bring moisture, damp streams

Fog the pavement, sprouting life-

Keen eyes survey all light, house, grass,

Sky, car, even a box for mail. I have

None. I speak with a numb tongue,

I wait with a broken watch, I look

Through blurred eyes and somber

Thoughts; do I complete a circle or do I

Finish a line… do I wake up blessed or is

There no divine, do I bleed when my

Heart is broken-no but I wish it would

Do I live life to the fullest-no but I

Should. and only if was that easy, but

No-I’m trekking land to land, plain to

Plain, and my heart pumps, arteries to

Veins; but wen I die, empty mind free… a

Frog croaks, day breaks, and another morning

I wait.

Destitute, marooned, lost in a land where no hope existed, trapped, isolated, cold, lonely, whisping out of consciousness, eyes barely up, a faded vision appears… A glimmer, in the distance, she calls, bright lights flood the darkness, taking over the black with white, but it’s a stretch, was she just passing by or out looking for a tattered soul? I drag myself to her feet, and I freeze-the warmth… I feel a hand pull me close; an embrace one fimilair, but new on it’s own, a beautiful hold, I nestle close, I don’t want to allow this feeling to stop, it begins to fade away… She retreats, back to her land filled with love and sensation, a satifying world filled with pleasantries, I hear it to be amazing, still I wait distraught, listlessly sinking, once again in the darkest depths of a horrid destiny hellish purgatory… I wait, getting use to the depths in which I sink, slowly, but there she is again, back for a second and a third time, what is this-this feeling? hearts racing, eyes studying, fingers following new curves and going to new unknowns; this new sensation I feel, I know this is from the land which she came, and she slowly begins my rescue, or is it too late to call, am I too far lost in this pool of black? how could this light save me without submerging as i do?… She says to hold on tight, brings me to her face, stares into my soul, I don’t know what she sees, I only have known it’s putrid side as of late, she takes me away… Black to grey, to lighter and lighter, to white, it feels amazing, like her embrace, how long can I stay here? when will she have to let me slip back to my dark land? questions I hope to never know the answer to, let me stay; it’s such a lovely day